Solitaire

The mixed chemistry- Anticipation & Un-bearness(aka - can't bear to. Can't think of a better word or just another term.)Life's always about the Tension of Opposites(read:Tuesday with Morrie), isn't it?

It was well learned that human has the ability to live in solitude.
When we lost something/someone that has been part of our lives, we actually still can go on.

Perhaps you realised that moving on from a place to another is not that hard after all.
You may have good memories there, good friends there even. But moving on is not that hard.

Today is my company's attachment girls' last day. Honestly I haven't felt more happier for them (to leave this place). I like them and had been playing the "guardian angel" role for them. I told them that people here and out there are treacherous mostly.
They had experienced themselves that some here are aint as nice as they seem to be.
I told them not with the fear that they may be wary of me as well. I let them judge.
Honestly I had enough of smiling to the people I don't like but this is the society. Those people have not stepped on my tail and we are getting along superficially. Let's just leave it at that.

Though they(the attachment girls) had their taste of horrid treatment from a selected individuals but still they have the mixed feeling when it's time to leave.
I like them too much to let them know. I choose to draw a line between them and my whole feeling cos' to remember loving too many people you know very well will only exist in your life during that period of them hurts.

Honestly having coming and leaving several places, I have come to terms with that mixed feelings. It is always somewhat upsetting to realise that some people, no matter how close you were with during that period, stayed only close that period.

I am glad that I still have a few that is staying close to my present. I treasure each and every relationship but I gotta learn too that not every's to stay.

Memories are all that's left and whether to reminisce or not is up to individual.

Still I wish them luck. It is a pleasure to know and befriend people all around.
You can have a troop or the whole empire.But it's only when night falls, you realised your shadow is the only one staying close to you.

This is not some forlornness. Just part of the deal, if you realised.